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Yesterday I witnessed (more like heard) several car bumps from a driver trying to parallel park. Worst part is that the bumps were inflicted on someone’s parked car.

I was walking up the street and saw one van was trying to parallel park. Then I heard a *thunk* as I was coming up. I looked at the van to see if they would need any help, but they continued trying to park, and I was in a rush, so I walked off. I went a little ahead, but I heard the same *thunk* sound several times..

You’re probably scolding me off in your head now, right? Lol. I am horrible when it comes to reporting/fessing up, etc. I do not have the guts to do it and would just like to live my life our peacefully. I know I would be a pissed driver if I came back and there were scratches all over my car.. but what can you do?

I am getting repetitive, but today I decided I should type about something worthwhile. Up until now, most of my posts have consisted of fashion topics or music. These two topics are very much define who I am, but it gets boring after a while, right? (Actually, not for me, but maybe for you.)

Sentimental Deep.

In many ways, I am an extremely sentimental person. I am constantly on-guard because I don’t want to hurt my friends or family. Every single moment that I spend with every one, I remember and cherish. This is stupid, but I feel embarrassed when I am so… clingy. Clingy to these memories that the opposite person might take as a grain of sand. However, I am constantly telling myself that “You only live one life.” I know I do not always make the best of everything, but I do try to emphasize every single moment. When I share a personal moment with someone, I feel special. It’s like a secret; only you and that other person knows it. I like being V.I.P., I guess you could word it.

On the other hand, I could be really cold-hearted as well. I don’t show this side to others often, because it’s very harsh. This is the absolute side of my ego complex. I think life would be far less stressful if I was always so cold-hearted and egoistic, but that’s not how society works. I guess, there are people who do act like this, and they are either idolized or ignored. Humans are a very fickle-hearted species, and our emotions are unpredictable at times. So I’d rather not gamble with the idea of being cold-hearted and selfless.

At some point though, I do get tired of being caring, helpful, fluffy, happy, joyful, etc. It is tiring, no matter how much one says that “The grass is greener on the other side.” It gets annoying and tiring to care for someone, and in some cases, not get anything back. Of course, the joy of caring is to know you’re helping someone, but being me, I can only handle it to a certain extent.

I am in a constant battle with myself when it comes to items. Materials. The things I receive from people. Sometimes, they are special items that I know to keep.. but honestly, there are some things that count as junk. Things that do not have a use other than to collect dust. My personality: I am very OCD when it comes to simplicity. Every so often, I would do a full clear out of my closet because I hate seeing clutter. The clothing that I have not even worn, goes to donation. I find it easy to clear out items like clothing.. but items such as souvenirs, or display objects are the worst. Once in a while, I get a …

Okay, I’ll be completely honest and materialistic here:

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I get a horrible souvenir. I don’t know how to describe it. I hate objects on display.. I’d rather just have an empty shelf. For example, I got a glass figurine. I loved it at first because the details were etched so accurately, but soon after, I realized there was no use to it. I wouldn’t even glance at it because its very occupation on my desk annoyed me. Sometimes, I would move it different places thinking ‘Maybe it’ll look better here’, but in the end, I just end up annoyed. The part that annoys me even more is myself. My inability to throw out things with even the least bit of sentimental value. If I know that the gift was just an “offer”, like in a give-and-take relationship, I wouldn’t care. But if someone gave me something that they were so eager to present me with, or had the slightest feeling put into it, THEN I find it really hard to throw away.

So, I think I’ll end it here. The reason why I brought this up is because I am dreading my clean-up day this weekend. Although I could just leave everything the way it is, again, my OCD demands that I clear everything I don’t need for a further spotless area. Anyone else have this …battle?

Because I do consider myself a fan of 2PM, a post about everything and everyone will be coming soon. I’m not mad, I’m not sad, I’m just curious and sympathetic.

Obligatory post time!!! I am sorry that I feel the need to post about an issue that has probably been discussed over and over again, but because the timing is still fresh, I will leave my 2 cents as always.

For those of you who don`t know about the Jaebum fiasco..well, google it because I`m lazy to link to my old post.

So it has finally been announced that Jaebum is not returning, and his contract has been terminated. In some ways, I am glad he does not have to pay for the consequences of a terminated contract..or at least, what I perceive in the public. However, the aftermath of this whole issue is getting out of hand, I think. The fact that there are some accusations towards the 2PM members is outrageous. I do not think either party (Jaebum/2PM members) deserve to have fingers pointed at. The worst part is that it seems as though the two are split into two sides. Jaebum will always be remembered as a great leader for 2PM, and I am sure that the members will remember him as well. (Sorry, I sound like someone died, God forbid this happens.).

In this whole process, everyone is getting hurt along the way; Jaebum, 2PM, the fans..anyone else it may concern, I guess. I would not want 2PM to have to discontinue activities because of this. I am hurt that Jaebum had to give up his dreams in a matter of four days. Four years that he trained for, four days since the news erupted and he left, and six months since the announcement of his termination. I would really, really hate for anything else to occur.

But anyways, that’s all I have to say about it. Everything’s done, and the question whether he would return in 2PM or not is answered.

just say’n.

Happy Lunar New Years too!

Umm, I haven’t posted in a week but I really do not know what to write about. Nothing eventful has happened to me that’s quite worthy to blog about. On the other hands, the weather has spontaneously been treating the winter Olympics well. I was thinking there would be a “spring” winter Olympics this year because of the lack of snow. Miracles happen.

Today, I sort of revived my tumblr because it’s been a while, and my friends still use it. It’s nothing new actually. But feel free to follow me nonetheless. I’ll be posting here and there once in a while to make it more livelier.